Never thought I'd say THAT...
"Bad Day Today"
Just bad. Haven't been to see him in 10 days, finally had a chance and I needed to trim his feet. Got there, got him. He wouldn't stand to have his feet done. Kept moving around. OK.
Played with him instead. Didn't go well. We're still having trouble with our circling game and today was really bad. He ended up pulling me over and dragging me. Was more careful about bracing myself. Charged at me a couple of times, ears pinned, and tried to stallion-stomp me. Never had that happen before. Came 2' from kicking me. Ears pinned a lot. Just really bad.
Finally came to a semi-good note to call it quits, but I'm really discouraged. Granted, I should have known better. He's always like this when he hasn't seen me in a while - and who can blame him? And it was the end of the day; he was hungry. And I have had a really frustrating week at work and school. And our circling game has always been our hardest. And, and, and.
So I don't know why I didn't see it coming. But I'm still frustrated. I think I need to get some help so that I'll have some more 'arrows' to deal with all this. I've e-mailed a few people already. But I'm still frustrated. It's so hard to only have 1 day a week, max to spend with him. School and work are so hectic, though. It all comes at once, dosn't it? Sorry for venting, but y'all are like family. I know you'll understand.
** Glad to see some signs of emotional progress... problems are now certainly my fault for misreading, misdoing, &c - instead of entirely Cloud's fault. Also good to see a "bad day" that compared to my early stuff isn't bad at ALL. All about the moment, isn't it?! Neat!
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